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“I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one.”

I find myself some days wondering what my life would be like had I gone a different path. What if I went to art school and majored in photography? Where would I be now? What if I had taken off more time in between undergrad and graduate school? Would I have gone back?

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I find myself having this banter with myself sometimes all too often. Not because I’m unhappy in the Marketing/Social Media field (I absolutely love it), but because I always find myself asking “What if?”

It may seem crazy. Maybe I’m having a ‘quarter-life crisis’. Even though I’m only 26, I feel like I have so many dreams and goals left to accomplish. And don’t say “You’re still so young! You have plenty of time.”

My life is currently like a high-speed Acela train and I’m just along for the ride. Each week seems to go by faster than the last. Before we know it, another year has gone by. Also, thanks Mayans for the awesome doomsday prank. Clearly 12/21/12 is just another day in the books; not the end of the world.

If I look back on my ‘life plan’ from when I was …. 18-ish?…. I would say I’m on the right track.

18-22: Undergraduate Degree (not much more to say here)
22-23: Take a year off and experience ‘life’ aka work as much as possible and attempt to ‘find myself’
23-25: Graduate School/find a full-time job with health benefits
25: Graduate from Masters program/Find a new career in new career path
26-30: Work/buy a house/get engaged/get married/get a dog/etc.
(I know…. I’m still 26, but I can check off ‘work’ and ‘get engaged’ off my list!)

I was blessed enough to also add, ‘Begin own business’ to that list for the 25-26 year (THANK YOU EVERYONE!), but now I have other things to add. Not just to add, but fit into my ‘life plan’.

Many of you may know (or not know), that I have been attempting to write a novel since I was 19 (guess I should probably add that in the Undergraduate degree section). In the 26-year, I managed to complete the first, albeit VERY ROUGH, draft. In the next six months, I plan to have the next version complete. By the end of 2013, I want to have it in its final form. I want to be able to start shopping it around, possibly self-publish, and be able to say ‘I am a published author.’

Call me a dreamer. But I’m about to make my dream, a reality. After all, I did it with my photography business; why not with a novel too?

Have you ever chased a dream until you achieved it? If so, what was it?

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Never Forget – Where I Was on September 11th

September 11th is a day in history that we will always remember. It was a day that will remain etched in our minds for eternity. For many of us, we can remember the exact place we were when we found out the first plane crashed into the World Trade Center. It was at that moment that we knew our lives had changed forever.

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I was a sophomore in high school, just old enough to know what was going, but young enough to still be naive to the horrible human beings out there in this world. It was Biology and we were working on an assignment in class. My teacher was out in the back room on her computer and came back in and said ‘A plane just crashed into the World Trade Center. I think someone is trying to kill the president’ and began laughing. We all just thought it was a freak accident, completely unaware about what had just happened on our own soil. It was a little bit later that morning that we heard about the second plane, as well as the Pentagon and just how real this was. At lunch, everyone was chattering about the events that had taken place. Many joked that this was about the President, while many were worried if there identities were now gone because the Pentagon had been hit (remember, we were all just 14 and 15 years old and still pretty unaware of how the world and the government worked). All in all, we were all nervous, worried and scared.

In my World Literature class, we discovered that one of our classmate’s brothers was supposed to be working at the World Trade Center that day. No one could get a hold of him in her family. In a time when we were nervous and just wanted to be home with our families, we found ourselves consoling her. Just a small example of how such a tragedy has the capability to bring a group of people together. In the end, it turns out he had been traveling out of state on business. In history that day, I asked my teacher if we were going to be holding class. He looked at me and said ‘Eryn, you’re living history right before your eyes.’ We sat in our classroom, with another classroom from next door and listened to the radio about what had transpired that day.

None of us truly realized how much our lives had just changed.

At 19, I traveled to New York City with my father’s 8th grade class that year. It was the first time I had stepped foot in NYC since the attacks, and we had the privilege of visiting Ground Zero. It was still in the excavation process and the damage to the surrounding buildings was still quite evident. The flag and the cross that were discovered and hung on the days following the attack, still stood where it had first been placed. Seeing Ground Zero in person was both humbling and eerie. Seeing the giant hole in the ground where those towers once stood and knowing how many people lost their lives was just an indescribable feeling. At the same time, I felt like I was standing on sacred ground.

Here we are, 10 years later, still fighting the War on Terrorism, still fighting those same terrorists that attacked our people on our own soil. But in the last ten years, the wounds have healed and we have began to rebuild. We will always remember the lives lost that day and all the lives lost in the war that followed. But if nothing else, the attacks on September 11th, 2001 have made us as Americans stronger.

In honor of 9/11, a Field of Honor was set up on our local pond. Each flag was dedicated to someone. It’s a place to remember and place to reflect. But also a place to recognize all those people who dedicated their lives to keeping us safe.

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So to those who have lost their lives fighting for our country (and to those who still continue to fight or have fought)

Derek Hines

And to those who lost their lives on September 11, 2001.

We will never forget.

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Wine and Creativity Go Hand in Hand

For those who know me, they will tell you I love life.

Granted, when I’m in a horrendous mood, I see the bad in everything. Thankfully for everyone around me, my goal is to see the sunny side of life. An eternal optimist.  I like to pretend that there aren’t horrible people out there, or that terrible events occur simple because one country despises another. I just want everyone to be happy. Perhaps this is just me being naive, but I’m going to crawl back into my happy bubble now and let you make your own decision.

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Yesterday, as a drove home from work (I have a 40 minute commute on beautiful back roads), I blasted Sugarland and just thought about life. The 10 year anniversary of 9/11 is upon us and like many, I remember exactly what I was doing. The next year that followed, was the year that I really found my voice and began writing heavily in a journal. I did this for the next 5 years. I filled about 14 journals with all of my thoughts, wishes, hopes and dreams and even my horrible days and awful thoughts. As I drove, I began to think about what I wanted from my life and where I want to be.

And then I remembered…

I just want to be able to write again. And not just blog, but literally write. I’ve been writing a novel since I was 19. Maybe it’s time to complete it.

And creativity isn’t complete without a nice bottle of wine! Perhaps it’s time to crack a bottle open and get back to work. Maybe I’ll finally finish before I turn 30.

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