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What I’ve Learned From a Year-Long Injury

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5 diagnoses. 4 x-rays. 3 doctors. 2 MRIs. 1 cortisone shot. That essentially sums up the last year of my life. Since Labor Day weekend 2013, my life has felt as if it has revolved around my left foot. From doctor’s appointments, to exercising, and everything in between, everything has been about my left foot.

I won’t lie. This last year has been trying. I’ve been in a walking boot three times, on crutches once for 4 weeks (but probably should have been on them when I was first diagnosed), and have been forced to put most of normal activities to the back burner on numerous occasions, all because of a foot injury that just wouldn’t heal.  It seemed like just as I was able to get back into a routine of exercise, and more importantly – riding a horse, my foot would start to throb, and I’d be at square one again. Since I was first injured, I’ve gained 20 lbs. And that’s after losing 10 initially. I should have eaten better. And I could have worked out with my upper body more, but I decided I would rather eat my feelings. I’ve always been an emotional eater. This injury completely interrupted my life, as they always do.

But this isn’t about how much my foot injury set me back. This is about how what this injury taught me.

I know. You’re probably wondering how an injury could teach me anything when 99% of the time, I wished it would just go away in my sleep. But reflecting over the last year, I have learned from this.

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I’ve learned that it’s okay to rely on others. You are looking at a person who doesn’t like to ask for help. Who has NEVER liked to ask for help. I’m not sure why, I just never have. But with this injury, I’ve had no choice, especially when I found myself on crutches. And I what I found out was that people are always willing to help. I quickly realized that little things like getting dinner in the kitchen, grocery shopping, and just about carrying anything, wasn’t going to happen without help. Thankfully, I had a lot of people around me who were always happy to assist when I needed them.

I’ve learned that it’s okay to rest. I like to be on the go. Sure, I enjoy taking a break, reading and watching TV, but on my terms. When you’re in a boot and/or on crutches, it’s not on your terms anymore. It’s a forced rest. Accepting that I needed to be off my foot and on my couch was sometimes tough to take, but I stuck it out. But I found a new respect for my couch, and just being able to sit quietly without having to do something.

I’ve learned how necessary, and important, it is to be active. You know the whole phrase ‘You never know what you’ve got until it’s gone’? That pretty much sums up the last year. I never really enjoyed exercising. I rode horses and liked to walk. I was starting to get into running when I got injured. In the last year, my activity has been on and off, depending on how the foot was. I can’t tell you how many times I looked at my fiance and said “I wish I could go for a run right now.” Let’s just say, activity will be incorporated back in my day, almost immediately.

But one thing I already knew, I have the best support system there is. There have been countless tears, rants, angry text messages and swears thrown all over the place since I first was injured, and my fiance, family and friends, have always been there to remind me that this will heal and I will get better. And without them, I probably would have tried to chop my foot off lost my mind.

Most importantly, I’m on the road to recovery. I’m on the mend. I’m out of the boot, and off crutches. I’m slowly getting back to my normal activities. I should be fully cleared by 12/1. But in the meantime, I’m going to keep reflecting on what I’ve learned and continue to focus on healing.

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A Final Diagnosis… hopefully.

It’s been a long year. But hopefully, after today, I’m finally on the FINAL road to recovery.

The “final”, and it’s in quotes until I’m cleared, is a stress fracture/reaction in my navicular bone (sound familiar?) and a plantar plate ligament injury in my second metatarsal. Essentially, there isn’t an evident fracture in my navicular bone, but they aren’t ruling it out. And since last year when I was first diagnosed, I was non put on non-weight bearing, it didn’t heal. The ligament is essentially stretched out in my plantar plate, so I have to tape it to my big toe to try to repair and shorten the tendon again.

So what does this all mean?

I’m still in a boot. Except now, I have crutches. And a non-weight bearing order for 4 weeks.

I won’t lie. I’m frustrated. And down. And angry. And upset. But, I’m also hopeful. And trying to be optimistic. The new diagnosis with the plantar plate makes sense. The navicular stress reaction makes sense. Especially if they both went undiagnosed or were treated improperly the first time.

I keep trying to tell myself that it’s only 4 weeks. And hopefully in 4 weeks, this will all be behind me for good and I can focus on recovery and regaining strength.

But that doesn’t disregard the fact that right now, at this moment, 4 weeks seems like a lifetime away.

On the plus side?

Maybe I’ll develop some insane upper body strength from carrying myself around on crutches….

So I ask all of you – if you’ve had an injury where you’ve had to be non-weight bearing, what kinds of things did you do (exercise related) at home to keep yourself moving and focused?

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Reclaiming My Motivation

Have you ever had a day where you just felt like you needed motivation? Whether it’s to get your to-do list conquered, to finish that DIY project you’ve been putting off, or just to get back into the groove of exercise?

I’m having one of those days. Despite still being in a boot, I know there are plenty of things I could be doing to exercise even if it’s just upper body related. I look at an image I posted on myself on Instagram back in August of my 30 day, or so, progress from doing Insanity. I had lost 10 lbs and inches and you could see the drastic change. I was pumped. Then I got injured. And motivation turned quickly into depression and defeat. I was angry and sad that my body could defy me this way with all that I just worked so hard to achieve. So instead of continuing to exercise, I started eating junk again.

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Fast forward 4 weeks, my body has changed again and not for the better, I put 5 pounds back on (and not water weight 5 pounds – we’re talking muscle turned back to fat 5 pounds) and am kicking myself for not continuing to do SOMETHING. I know it’s easier said than done, but really, how long would some push-ups, sit-ups, and core work have taken me.

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And now, as I am back on track, eating healthier and tracking everything I consume with Lose It!, I am searching for motivation. All I want to do is run. I know that’s not an option right now and even once the boot comes off, I’ll be learning to run since I was never a true runner.

So how am I finding my motivation?

Simple. By googling, ‘Motivational Weight Loss Stories for Women’. The pages that come up are FILLED with women who have lost 30, 40, 50 and over 100 pounds. And that motivates me. And reminds me that I can do it too.

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Also looking at motivational words of advice and fitness memes (strewn about this post!)

So what am I doing after work?

Some Push-Ups, some core work and possibly attempting a short walk up and down my street, even with the boot on. Just to get moving. My body and my mind are craving it. I am taking on a ‘no excuses’ attitude and no longer using my boot as an excuse.

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This boot is not going to stop me from achieving my fitness goals anymore. I am going to keep working hard to be strong, fit and healthy.

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By this time next year, I WILL have reached my fitness goals. And I will look back on this post as the day I reclaimed my motivation!

A few of the motivational weight loss sites:

I Did It!

Get Inspired to Get Fit!

My Thoughts (aka Ranting) of today

If I seem to be MIA for the next few days, it’s because I’m prepping for my best friend’s wedding this week.

Yep. My first friend and my longest-known friend (27 years!) is getting married this weekend. Needless to say, there is a lot of prep stuff to do here before I travel to Maryland to see her marry the man of her dreams! So if I disappear… you’ll know why!

Okay. On to my thoughts… currently.

First, how long does a navicular stress fracture take to heal? Does anyone know? Because I’ve been in the boot for 3 weeks and I’m already itching to get out of it. I wasn’t even a runner before I got injured and now, all I want to do is run. Seriously. As much as it sucked that I injured myself exercising, all I want to do now is exercise. Like I can promise the second I get the go ahead from my doctor, I’ll be hitting a running shoe store, getting fitted for new shoes and hitting the pavement. Or the treadmill… depending on what the weather is like when the boot comes off.

I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin to do some serious cardio. It’s driving me INSANE. Literally… I just want to run around. I also want to wear two shoes again. I miss wearing two shoes. I also currently can’t find any of my left shoes, which is strange and totally unexplainable. I mean, I put my shoes on and take them on off in the same place. So not sure how that’s happening.

And the whole boot/one shoe look is totally not stylish.

This boot is seriously cramping my style.
This boot is seriously cramping my style.

I know … positive thinking. But I just needed to rant. I go back to the doctor tomorrow and the first thing I’m asking, well probably the second thing, is what can I be doing for exercise. The first will be ‘So are we any closer to getting this thing off?’

Hopefully, I’ll have an update, but if I disappear until next week, it’s because I’m traveling!

Enjoy!