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Crutches Be Gone!

I do promise that soon enough, the blog will become more regular. To be quite honest, as I said in my last post, it’s taken a back seat to the busy-ness that has become my life. I also won’t lie – I just haven’t had the inspiration to blog. Or to write in general. And I don’t like to post on the blog, just to post. That’s not fun for you, or for me. It’s not content I can be proud of, nor is it interesting for you to read.

As soon as I get some motivation, the blog will become more active. Pinky swear.

But for now, the good news of the week?

I’M OFFICIALLY OFF CRUTCHES! Oh, and I get to start transitioning out of the boot.

I know a lot of people chronicle their injuries on their blogs. Part of me wishes I had because I probably would have been able to get a lot of pent up things out. But, again, I didn’t want to post over and over how much it sucks being injured and how sick I am of crutches. So I didn’t. Consider yourself lucky, because my family got to listen to it instead 😉

But that’s all over because I’m off of the crutches and I can officially start getting back to my normal life. Within 2 weeks, he wants my fully out of the boot. So it means I get to start wearing two shoes (sneakers!) again. If I’m going to a lot of strenuous walking, the boot has to stay on for another week or two, but short jaunts means two shoes!

I also got the all clear to start exercising. Boot on at the gym for the next week, but I can do the bike and upper body. And I start personal training with a friend (they are considering it my physical therapy). I go back in 6 weeks for another appointment which is where I should get the all-clear to start doing more cardio. As my foot feels better though, I can do the bike at the gym (with a sneaker within 2 weeks) and start walking again.

I CAN’T EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW RELIEVED I AM. I needed to hear all of this yesterday. I’ve been so down about this prolonged injury that hearing that I’m on the mend was amazing.

Now, it’s time to stop comfort eating (and drinking) and start getting back on track. Since the injury re-occured, I’ve gained probably another 10 lbs (NOT GOOD!) so now I’m facing a 60 lb weight loss.

But I know it’s not going to be instant, so I’m focusing on small steps. I know I’ll get there. It may take me a year, but by this time next year, I’ll be at my goal weight, and healthy as can be!

Fighting the Scale

I’ve been fighting the scale my entire life. We’ve argued, we’ve celebrated, we’ve cried, we’ve made up, but our favorite thing to do is fight.

I’ve relied on that number glowing back at me (or being pointed at) for as long as I can remember. I’ve never had a good relationship with the scale. I rarely like what it had to tell me. In fact, 9 times out of 10, I was so upset after getting off the scale my day was ruined (that might be a bit dramatic…)

Even going to a doctor’s appointment has become a battle. The first thing I’m asked when I visit my doctor is ‘Can we get a weight for you?’ Unless I’m going for my annual physical, the answer is no. You don’t need to get a weight for me if I’m there for a sinus infection.

This time last year, I was convinced my scale was lying to me. I saw a number looking back at me that I swore I would never see again. I was angry. I was mad. I was depressed. I was upset. I was in disbelief.

The number was wrong. The scale was WRONG. I tried to reason with it. This can’t be true.

But it was true. I was in denial. I had added nearly 40 more pounds to a frame that had managed to get down to a healthy weight just a couple of years prior. I stopped talking to my scale. We weren’t friends anymore.

Here we are a year later. I’ve worked out (not as consistently as I should have), I’ve cleaned up my diet (not as much as I should..but I will!). And I’m determined (more so than ever). But most importantly, I’m learning to not fight my scale.

Our relationship has improved. I no longer blame my scale for the number looking back at me. After all, it’s just the messenger. I know my scale is not ‘off’ and is registering the wrong weight (it’s digital). I know my scale is not out to sabotage me and ruin my life (Actually, the jury is still out on that one…)

What I do know?
I am the only one responsible for my weight. And I’m learning to love me for me. All 190 pounds of me. And instead of focusing on how awful I may feel, I’m focusing on exercise and eating healthy. And I know my body, and the scale, will love that.

In the end, I know I will lose the weight. I know, I’ll get fit and healthy and I know it’s not going to be an easy road, but it will be damn worth it in the end.

What have I learned?

  • Focus on building a good relationship with your scale. If you can’t, throw it out. You will drive yourself crazy if you constantly focus on what it’s telling you.

  • If you can’t part with it, don’t rely on it. Step on it once a week at most. Even less is better.

  • Judge your body by how you feel, and how your clothes fit.

And when you do step on the scale, you’ll no longer feel the need to fight it.

Honestly…..

Sorry for the disappearing act. Things have a been a bit crazy in my world as of late. I guess the best thing would be to bring you all up to speed.

The foot: Oh the foot. Yes. This has been an adventure all it’s own. Positive: I am out of the boot. Negative: My foot is still in just as much pain as before.

So why am I out of the boot you ask? I just couldn’t take it anymore.

I was at my podiatrist every two weeks until mid-October, receiving the same news. Keep the boot on. Take it off when it’s feeling okay and start weaning off of it. I then went a month before going back, and following his advice. I figured, he’s a doctor – he knows what he’s talking about. I went back in November (right around Thanksgiving). I was in agony that day. Same amount of pain from when I first went. I had been in the boot for 3 days straight again after being out of it for a full week prior. I was not a happy camper.

His advice “Keep doing what you’re doing.” I was told my x-rays didn’t show anything again (they never have). When I asked for another MRI, he told me I didn’t need one because there wasn’t anything on my x-rays (see above – The MRI is what confirmed the stress fracture in the first place). He then proceeded to tell me to start physical therapy ASAP and get fitted for orthotics. My response ‘I can barely go without the boot right now – how I am supposed to do physical therapy?’ and he told me to keep going without it when my foot felt okay and wear it when it doesn’t. I asked if this could be doing more harm than good and he said ‘It could.’

Needless to say, I’m heading to a sports medicine doctor in January. I’m still in pain, but forgoing the boot until that second opinion.

My Weight: The other battle. By the time I stopped wearing the boot, I had gained nearly 10 lbs that I worked so hard to lose, back. I started Weight Watchers officially last week and am sticking to it. It works for me.

Career: Well – this has probably been the largest change in my life. At the beginning of the month, I left my career as a marketing coordinator at a Bank, to pursue a job marketing for a book publisher. It was simply put, the best thing I could have done for myself. Book publishing is where I have always wanted to be, so I’m ecstatic!

Now it’s a matter of getting myself into a workout routine. My goal was to keep getting up at 5:30 and head straight to the gym. But it’s like my body knew I didn’t HAVE to get up that first day. Since then, I’ve been in bed until 7 AM. Time to kick-start the workouts again! After the new year, I’ll be hitting the gym with a good friend in the mornings. That should help!

The Lifestyle Change: This time around with Weight Watchers, I’m not looking at it as a diet. I’m looking at it as a way to help change my lifestyle. Thankfully, everyone where I work loves to eat healthy and brings their lunches in, so that helps my urge to go out. My bank account also thanks me. I’m going to be brutally honest on here and track my weight loss to help keep me accountable. I’m trying to find some sort of widget to put on here, but for now, it will be text.

Once I get back to the gym, I’ll be adding a ‘DailyMile’ widget as well.

So for now – here are my current stats. Weigh-in’s for Weight Watchers are on Fridays, so Fridays will be my weight update day! However, since I don’t like to talk about my weight in terms of numbers, I’m going to post it in terms of pounds to lose!

Pounds to Lose (Started 12/9/2013): 51.6

Pounds Lost: 1.9

Pounds Remaining: 49.7