Tag Archives: weight loss

Time to Crush Goals – Monthly Goals, June 16 – July 30

Wow. Thank you for the response on yesterdays post ! After a brief hiatus from blogging, it felt good to dive back in and receive such a warm response from everyone on this post!

Now we move on to the first set of monthly goals to help me achieve my yearly goals. You’ll notice this first one is over 6 weeks, as opposed to four weeks, and that’s because I would like to have the goal starts at the beginning of each month, not in the middle. Which means that this first set will be a little bit longer.

Time-to-crush-goals

Lose 10 pounds

This might seem like a lot for six weeks, however, I have a lot of weight to lose, and I know a good majority of the first pounds that will come off will be water weight. I have a feeling once I adjust my nutrition and begin consistently working out, the first ten pounds will be pretty easy. At least I hope, since in the past it hasn’t been! Losing 10 in the first six weeks will put at a good starting point in my yearly goal as well.

Exercise a minimum of three times per week

My overall goal is to incorporate more exercise into my life consistently by the end of the year and I know to lose weight, I need to keep moving. Starting now, I want to be active at least three times a week this month. That’s completely doable, and still allows for days when I just need to rest.

Create six blog posts that I’m proud of

What do I mean by this? Simple. Not fluff. I don’t want to bring this blog back and have it consist of me rambling about my day. I want to provide interesting and/or valuable content that people want to read and that will want to share and have their friends read and so on. In order to do that, I need to be inspired and plan. I bought a new Moleskine planner that will help me to create a content calendar, so to speak, and keep my posts that are in the works organized. I also purchased a new journal to jot down any inspiring words or ideas that pop into my head.

Complete updating all older blog posts

I’ve been in the process of updating all of my older blog posts, not just with some edits, but also make sure any affiliate links that could be used are. I don’t intend or plan to overload my posts with them, and I’m only including where I mention a product or already link to something somewhere, but I want to make sure they are there. It’s the first step to begin monetizing my blog.

Put an extra $400 in savings (on top of what is already going in!)

I already set aside a good chuck each month for my personal savings (thank you Automatic Savings Plans from Capital One 360), and I’ve been working hard to build my account back up. It was looking pretty sad for awhile. Eventually I will have a mortgage to pay and I’m not going to have as much extra to put into savings, so at some point the chunk I put away currently will get reduced down. Before that happens, I want to continue to put as much extra away as possible.

Treat myself to a spa pedicure

I just had a pedicure at the end of May for a friend’s wedding, and normally I wouldn’t go again until there was no polish left on my toes. But I plan to treat myself again well before then. It’s summer and I want my feet to look nice.

Well, there you have it. My goals through August 1st. I will be tracking everything to be able to give you the most accurate update possible at the beginning of August!

Have you set up monthly goals for yourself? What about yearly?

new eryn e signature

Restarting My Health Journey for the Millionth Time

I hate writing these posts. I hate putting it out there. I’ve done it too many times. I’ve started and stopped my health and fitness journey more times than I can count. I lose the weight, then I gain it back and then some. It’s discouraging. It’s scary. And I hate it.

And yet, instead of changing things all those others times I stopped and started, here I am starting again. I’m not going to say it’s the last time, because that sets me up for failure. But this time, I have to work as hard as possible. I can’t let myself feel defeat. I have to push. If I don’t see results right away, I need to be patient and work harder.

I need to know that it was a long process to put this weight on, and it’s going to be a long process to take it off. It’s not going to happen overnight. But I can do this.

Why this post on a Monday morning? Because I’m starting my health journey for the millionth time this morning. I’m refocusing myself. I’m reminding myself that I have to do this. I can’t keep living at the weight I’m at. It’s not healthy. It’s not about appearance anymore. It’s about my health. And that needs to change.

In less than a year, I will be getting married. Yes, we will finally set a date. In two months, I start trying on wedding dresses. While I know, in two months, I won’t be anywhere close to my goal, I hope to be down at least 10 pounds. I know dresses can be taken in, and that’s my plan.

I know a year is plenty of time to lost the amount of weight I need to lose (around 65 lbs). But I’m just going to focus on doing the best I can do.

So here we go. Starting over again. But this time, I feel like the switch finally turned on and I’m ready to do this.

I Can. I Will. I Am Going to Lose the Weight.

I’m frustrated. I’m upset. And I’m angry at myself.

I know. It sounds harsh. But I think it’s time to be a bit harsh on myself.

I’m really struggling to lose weight. What started as a 30 pound journey in 2009, has gradually grown into a 40, than a 50 and now a nearly 60 pound weight loss. Which completely blows my mind.

I’m mad because I can’t believe I allowed myself to get to this place.

I’m angry because I didn’t see it happening. I was in denial. I didn’t believe I was gaining that much, even as that scale creeped up.

I’m frustrated because I’m having a hard time seeing the needle move.

I know it’s not all about the number. But when you have nearly 60 lbs to lose, let’s be real, it is all about the number.

With our trip to Vegas looming in just over 70 days, with wedding planning and all that goes with it (including shopping for that perfect dress), it’s time to stop being lazy and start facing my weight. I’ve been trying to do that for weeks, but have been nonchalant about it. If I eat poorly, I shrug it off and say I’ll do better tomorrow. No more. It’s time to be strict with myself again. Not restrictive. Just strict.

i can i will correct

Here is my plan.

  •  Weigh myself weekly. I hate the scale. If I could get away with not owning a scale I would. But right now, I need to see that number to validate the hard work. I also will be watching the BF percentage closely.
  • Low-carb/low-sugar/high protein. I know low carb works for me. I also know I feel a lot better without all of the breads in my life. We’ve wondered for a long time if I have a gluten intolerance, and that could be attributing to a lot of my issues. At least going low-carb will help significantly.
  • Less dairy. I love dairy. Dairy does not love me. I love cream cheese, regular cheese, pretty much any cheese. I’ve already learned I can’t eat yogurt anymore, and since yogurt makes my belly angry, cheese will too. If I’m going to have it, it’s either a little bit of cream cheese in the morning, or feta cheese on my salad. I already drink almond milk in cereal and coffee, so that will be an easy adjustment.
  • Drink black coffee. I’ve been testing the waters with drinking black coffee in the morning. And I like it. Even though I drink almond milk in my coffee, drinking it black in the morning will make it a bit more pure and save on the calories.
  • Drink more tea.
  • Less alcohol. I don’t drink much as it is (only on the weekends), but I plan on cutting back how much on the weekends as well as what I’m drinking. I LOVE beer. Especially a good craft beer. But if I’m trying to stay low-carb, then beer is not a good option. I’ll probably stick to ciders or wine, when I do indulge.
  • Nutritional shakes for breakfast. Last winter, I did a Shakeology challenge with a friend. I loved the shakes for breakfast and found I felt so much better throughout the day. I’m getting samples of Vega’s nutritional shakes to try (I like that they are all-natural, gluten-free, etc.). If I like those, I’ll buy a tub or two and make those my breakfast in the morning. A good healthy start to the day.
  • Take my vitamins and supplements daily. I have a Vitamin D deficiency and I’ve been pretty horrible about taking my supplements. It’s time to get back on track with my daily dose, along with the rest of my vitamins to keep myself healthy.
  • Exercise 5-6 times per week. This will be the hardest for me. Getting to the gym is my biggest challenge. But I will make it. And I will work out at least once a day, 5-6 times a week.
  • Stay optimistic. It took me years to put this weight on, I know it’s not going to come off overnight. I need to stay focused, and optimistic. I have a habit of giving up if I don’t see results right away. I have to remind myself that a loss is a loss. Whether it’s 4 pounds or a 1/2 lb. It’s still a loss.

The good news. I started back on this journey right around the new year (I know, so cliche), and have been very conscious of what I’ve been eating. The bad news. I haven’t gotten into my exercise groove yet, and I’m still splurging a bit too much.

Back at it. Here we go.

New Signature

#MicroblogMonday #3 – Regaining My Health

Not sure what #MicroblogMondays is? Read the inaugural post which explains the idea and how you can participate too.


Here we are. The first week of January, 2015. Which marks the busiest month of the entire year at the gym. Most of those new faces are ones of those who have made resolutions to finally get healthy. Many will start to watch their resolutions go by the wayside by February.

I’m did not make a resolution to get healthy this year. I never stick to my resolutions. Ever.

This year, it’s my goal. And this time, it’s not all about vanity. It’s about my health.

microblogmondayhealth

At 28 years old, I weigh more than I have in my entire life. I’ve never been over the 200 lb mark. I am now. And I hate to even admit that out loud. But I need to make sure I stick to my goal.

YOU WEIGH OVER 200 POUNDS. YOU DON’T HAVE A SMALL AMOUNT OF WEIGHT TO LOSE.

(Sorry, needed to put that out there. Just as a friendly reminder.)

What started as a goal to lose 30 pounds over 6 years ago (just to lose that college weight), is now a 60 pound journey. Yes, I’m horrified. Yes, I’m scared. And yes, I’m ashamed for getting to this point.

But this isn’t all about looks. Yes, of course I want to lose weight for Vegas in the spring, and our wedding in 2016, not too mention dress shopping this summer, but this is about regaining my health. Hypothyroidism, diabetes, heart disease, just to name a few, run in my family. All diseases that can be helped by exercise. Even my anxiety dissipates when I eat better and exercise more.

So yes, I’ll be back at the gym. I’ll be eating better. I’ll be focusing on getting my health back. But this is not a new year’s resolution. This is the long-term goal.

We only have one body and one life. I’m ready to regain mine and become the best version of me that I can.

New Signature

 

Crutches Be Gone!

I do promise that soon enough, the blog will become more regular. To be quite honest, as I said in my last post, it’s taken a back seat to the busy-ness that has become my life. I also won’t lie – I just haven’t had the inspiration to blog. Or to write in general. And I don’t like to post on the blog, just to post. That’s not fun for you, or for me. It’s not content I can be proud of, nor is it interesting for you to read.

As soon as I get some motivation, the blog will become more active. Pinky swear.

But for now, the good news of the week?

I’M OFFICIALLY OFF CRUTCHES! Oh, and I get to start transitioning out of the boot.

I know a lot of people chronicle their injuries on their blogs. Part of me wishes I had because I probably would have been able to get a lot of pent up things out. But, again, I didn’t want to post over and over how much it sucks being injured and how sick I am of crutches. So I didn’t. Consider yourself lucky, because my family got to listen to it instead 😉

But that’s all over because I’m off of the crutches and I can officially start getting back to my normal life. Within 2 weeks, he wants my fully out of the boot. So it means I get to start wearing two shoes (sneakers!) again. If I’m going to a lot of strenuous walking, the boot has to stay on for another week or two, but short jaunts means two shoes!

I also got the all clear to start exercising. Boot on at the gym for the next week, but I can do the bike and upper body. And I start personal training with a friend (they are considering it my physical therapy). I go back in 6 weeks for another appointment which is where I should get the all-clear to start doing more cardio. As my foot feels better though, I can do the bike at the gym (with a sneaker within 2 weeks) and start walking again.

I CAN’T EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW RELIEVED I AM. I needed to hear all of this yesterday. I’ve been so down about this prolonged injury that hearing that I’m on the mend was amazing.

Now, it’s time to stop comfort eating (and drinking) and start getting back on track. Since the injury re-occured, I’ve gained probably another 10 lbs (NOT GOOD!) so now I’m facing a 60 lb weight loss.

But I know it’s not going to be instant, so I’m focusing on small steps. I know I’ll get there. It may take me a year, but by this time next year, I’ll be at my goal weight, and healthy as can be!

Setting Goals

Happy Monday my friends! ….. Just kidding. It’s Tuesday. And yes….I completely forgot it’s actually Tuesday. Long Weekend Problems.

Today, I’m talking about goals. Life goals, fitness goals, pretty much any kind of goal. I’m the type of person who sets a goal, puts her mind too it for about 3 weeks, and then quickly loses motivation because pizza sounds so much better running.

But I know having goals in place can keep one accountable. So with Labor Day behind us, and for some reason summer back in full swing, I decided that it’s time to set some good, attainable goals for the next four months (until the end of 2014).

1. Exercise more. This has been a much-discussed topic in my house for probably…. well, forever. So, it’s time to nip it in the butt and get moving. I go through such spurts with fitness. Insanity for 6 weeks last year (granted, I had to stop because I injured myself… but I could have done other things), Running for about 4 weeks, gym for about 3 weeks, etc. I’m a start and stop kind of fitness person. I want to stop being that kind of person, and start becoming the person who incorporates some sort of activity into their life everyday. It’s not about vanity anymore; it’s about my health. Especially as I close in on the big 3-0.

What am I doing to kickstart this?

For one thing, I signed up for personal training sessions with a good friend of mine who is local. She knows how much I have struggled with my weight and fitness through the years (since high school!) and really wants to help. So next Tuesday, it’s off to a local park for some serious one on one personal training. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m anxious. But I know she’s awesome at it, and will push me just far enough beyond my limits to make it count.

What else am I doing?

I plan on going to the gym every morning. Even with personal training twice a week in the evenings. Even if it’s for 20-30 minutes of cardio. Just to keep myself in that mindset. If I don’t go to the gym, then it’s a 2.5 mile walk at lunch. And during the beautiful fall weather, I’ll STILL go for a walk at lunch, even if I worked out in the AM. I need to keep myself moving.

2. Lose 15 pounds. Considering the amount of weight I have to lose (like nearly 60 pounds to my ultimate goal weight), this is minimal. But, it’s a smaller goal. And doesn’t seem so intimidating. I’m giving myself 4 months to lose 15 pounds. That’s 3.75 pounds per month. I can definitely do that. And I’m hoping in the next four months, it ends up being a bit more than that. But I’m focusing on 15. And whatever else happens, happens.

3. Try new things. I’ve always been the type to avoid trying new things because I was intimated. Or I was scared of what others would think of me. But now, I want to push that to the back of mind and start living. I’ve already signed up to learn to Paddleboard. Maybe I’ll consider trying Yoga. Or joining a running group.

4. Run a 5K. This one may not be attainable in the next 4 months. I’ll have to see how I’m doing fitness-wise by October/November. And how the weather is. But if I’m not ready, I’ll run one next year. This has always been on every goal list, bucket list, resolution list, etc. and I really want to focus on achieving it.

5. Blog more. I’ve really tried to be better about neglecting this blog. I have gotten better. But I want to aim to post more things of value. Not just ranting posts. Or posts where I’m trying to be funny. Legitimate posts that people want to read and are interested in what I have to say.

6. Meet my 100 books read goal. I’m SO far behind on this it’s not even funny. I’ve read 58 books this year. I have 42 more to go. That’s 10.5 books per month for the next 4 months to hit my goal. Le sigh…. it’s a good thing I have lots of good books ready and waiting on my nook! I’m currently reading The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer . LOVE.

7. Cook more. I love to cook. I’m just lazy. Which means we eat whatever is easy. Which usually ends up being take-out. Now that’s not 100 degrees out (except for this week), I plan on cooking more dinners. One, it’s healthier. And two, leftovers. Which are always the best for lunch. We also recently purchased a Ninja, and I’ve been dying to use it. And I haven’t yet. But the first thing I plan on making…. homemade hummus. YUM!

8. Frame some of my photography. And not for my own use. To have ready so that I can start proposing art shows to local places around town. I have SO.MUCH. personal work that I would love to be able to sell, but without really getting it out there, it’s not going to. Yes, I love my Etsy shop, but it’s also not doing what I had hoped. So, it’s time to frame my work and hope I can get it at some local coffee shops around town. Maybe even sell a few pieces during the holidays.

9. Stop worrying so much, and start living. Hence my goals. If you notice, they are pretty generic.

And if I don’t hit them all, oh well. I’m not fretting anymore.

I’m no longer trying to use the gym for my appearance, but rather my health (although the vanity benefits rock too!). I’m not letting my fear or intimidation get to me, and allowing myself to try the things I’ve always wanted to try. I’m not worried about what others thing about this blog, instead I’m writing for me. That’s what this has always been. I’m enjoying reading, as opposed to trying to fill a quota. Yes, I’m trying to reach 100 books, but if I don’t do it this year, I’ll try again in 2015.

Setting goals is simply to help me organize what’s next for me in the coming months. To help keep me focused and know that I’m always doing something to better myself.

What are you doing in the next four months to better yourself?

Untitled design(8)

Weekly Workouts and Weigh In {8/18/14 – 8/24/14}

Last week was not a good week in terms of exercise or food. I had great intentions, but a combination of exhaustion from not sleeping well and a sore knee/foot, really kept me from accomplishing what I had hoped. But this week is a new week. Onward.

Monday 8/18/14: 2.8 mile lunchtime walk

Tuesday 8/19/14: Rest Day (Photo shoot in the evening)

Wednesday 8/20/14: 2.85 mile lunchtime walk

Thursday 8/21/14: Knee was bothering me so I took the day off.

Friday 8/22/14: Knee was still bothering me.

Saturday 8/23/14: Stalls at the barn followed by a 20 minute ride.

Sunday 8/24/14: Nothing. But I did manage to finish one book (Seating Arrangements by Maggie Shipstead), read a second complete one (Hysteria by Megan Miranda), and started a third (Little Mercies by Heather Gudenkauf)

I didn’t weigh in last week either. I knew my weight was either going to be up or the same, just based on how I felt. I also knew because of my lack of exercise, and eating out, it wasn’t going to be any different.

This week though, we are back on track.

 

Weekly Workouts and Weigh-In! {8/11/14 – 8/17/14}

Here is the first Weekly Workouts and Weigh-In post. Not the best week, but it’s okay. This coming week will be better!

Monday, 8/11/14 – 40 minutes Elliptical workout – 3.37 miles: This was the first day back at the gym in quite some time, and my first day working out in over a month. I didn’t want to overdo it on my foot on my first day back, so I kept the resistance low and focused more on time. I was happy to see that I could still go for 40 minutes at a pretty good clip and not want to die. So, the cardio that I built up running hasn’t disappeared entirely!

 Tuesday, 8/12/14: 35 minute Elliptical Workout – 2.88 miles: I definitely was not feeling the gym. The second day is always the hardest for me, and this day was no exception. But I forced myself out of bed and to the gym. Not a super intense workout, but I felt good because at least it was something for the day. I had every intention of starting to incorporate weights this day, but by the time I was done with elliptical, I just wanted coffee.

 Wednesday, 8/13/14: Planned rest day.

Thursday, 8/14/14: 2.5 mile lunchtime walk – I had every intention to get up and go to the gym, but I was exhausted. For no reason. But I walked 2.5 miles at lunch to make up for it!

Friday, 8/15/14: I had my gym clothes ready to go, but after a night of not much sleep again, I decided to stay and bed and sleep. I have photo shoots all weekend long, so I knew I’d be getting some exercise with those with the amount of walking, squatting, etc. I would be doing.

Saturday, 8/16/14: Photo shoots in the evening

Sunday. 8/17/14: Absolutely nothing

Overall, I didn’t exercise nearly as much as I had originally planned. But, I was happy with the few days I did. This coming week will definitely be more exercise overall. I’m making it happen!

Weekly Weight-In

Starting Weight {8/11/14} – 199.0/BF: 44.0%

Week 1 Weigh In {8/15/14} – 196.0/BF:44.2%

Change so far (even though I know it’s only 4 days… next week will be a full week!) – 3 lbs.

I know most of this is water weight, just from changing up my diet, but 3 lbs is still a loss and that makes me happy!

 

Fighting the Scale

I’ve been fighting the scale my entire life. We’ve argued, we’ve celebrated, we’ve cried, we’ve made up, but our favorite thing to do is fight.

I’ve relied on that number glowing back at me (or being pointed at) for as long as I can remember. I’ve never had a good relationship with the scale. I rarely like what it had to tell me. In fact, 9 times out of 10, I was so upset after getting off the scale my day was ruined (that might be a bit dramatic…)

Even going to a doctor’s appointment has become a battle. The first thing I’m asked when I visit my doctor is ‘Can we get a weight for you?’ Unless I’m going for my annual physical, the answer is no. You don’t need to get a weight for me if I’m there for a sinus infection.

This time last year, I was convinced my scale was lying to me. I saw a number looking back at me that I swore I would never see again. I was angry. I was mad. I was depressed. I was upset. I was in disbelief.

The number was wrong. The scale was WRONG. I tried to reason with it. This can’t be true.

But it was true. I was in denial. I had added nearly 40 more pounds to a frame that had managed to get down to a healthy weight just a couple of years prior. I stopped talking to my scale. We weren’t friends anymore.

Here we are a year later. I’ve worked out (not as consistently as I should have), I’ve cleaned up my diet (not as much as I should..but I will!). And I’m determined (more so than ever). But most importantly, I’m learning to not fight my scale.

Our relationship has improved. I no longer blame my scale for the number looking back at me. After all, it’s just the messenger. I know my scale is not ‘off’ and is registering the wrong weight (it’s digital). I know my scale is not out to sabotage me and ruin my life (Actually, the jury is still out on that one…)

What I do know?
I am the only one responsible for my weight. And I’m learning to love me for me. All 190 pounds of me. And instead of focusing on how awful I may feel, I’m focusing on exercise and eating healthy. And I know my body, and the scale, will love that.

In the end, I know I will lose the weight. I know, I’ll get fit and healthy and I know it’s not going to be an easy road, but it will be damn worth it in the end.

What have I learned?

  • Focus on building a good relationship with your scale. If you can’t, throw it out. You will drive yourself crazy if you constantly focus on what it’s telling you.

  • If you can’t part with it, don’t rely on it. Step on it once a week at most. Even less is better.

  • Judge your body by how you feel, and how your clothes fit.

And when you do step on the scale, you’ll no longer feel the need to fight it.

It’s Smoothie Time!

Happy Thursday!

I know, I’ve done a sort of disappearing act in the last couple of weeks, but quite honestly, I haven’t had the time or motivation to post much. After the ‘Growing Up Alex‘ series was completed, I wasn’t quite sure how I could back to my own posting. I was so honored to have her story on here that I didn’t want to cover it up by my own silly posts.

So I took a breather, except for the Boston Strong post last week.

But I’m back, and trying to brainstorm some new posts for y’all. Telling Alex’s story has inspired me to tell me own story as well, except mine has to do with anxiety and depression. That will be coming.

As for today – see below for my latest obsession.

We bought a NutriBullet over the weekend and I’m obsessed. I love making new concoctions and healthy smoothies. I’m definitely jumpstarting my mornings with these delicious drinks and I know I’m giving my body plenty of good vitamins and nutrients it needs. This morning I created one that I’m lovingly calling ‘Everything But the Kitchen Sink’ because I literally threw like 8 different things into it.

  • 2 handfuls of baby spinach
  • 1 banana
  • 8 baby carrots
  • 8 cherry tomatos
  • 2 broccoli florets
  • 3 slices of pineapple
  • 4 raspberries
  • 4 slices of cucumber
  • 1 tsp of xanthum gum (for thickening)
  • Water

I was pleasantly surprised at how delicious this was. And super filling.

My favorite one that I’ve made so far was a Peanut Butter Banana Smoothie.

  • 2 handfuls of spinach
  • 1 banana
  • 1 heaping tablespoon of Teddie Peanut Butter
  • 8 oz of almond milk
  • 2 tsp of cinnamon
  • ice (to make it nice and cold!)

photoIn other news, I’ve decided to stop tracking everything I’m eating and just focus on eating clean and good portions. I feel like I’m starting to focus to heavily on calorie intake and calorie burn, and instead just want to focus on being healthy. I know what makes me feel good when I eat and I know what makes me feel crappy, so we’re going to stick with that for now.

Anyways, I hope you all have a fabulous Thursday!